At the beginning...

Hello, hello! I'm a 30-something mom, living in the suburbs, who's just decided to begin to conquer (well, at least tame!) her eating disorder after living with it for over twenty years. I'm using this blog as a way to chronicle my process, my triumps, and my trials. I wanted a place on the net where I could connect with other people who are dealing with binge eating, bulimia, and body dysmorphia. This is one of my first steps into coming forth with my disease. Albeit I'm still anonymous, posting my words to the world gives me a sense of freedom.

At this point, at this date, at this time (but not this very moment!) I'm still bingeing and purging. I'll starve for a few meals, too, and then binge. The other day while watching TV Kellogg's Corn Flakes promised if I ate just corn flakes for breakfast and lunch I'd lose six pounds in two weeks. I need to read the fine print - is that with or without milk? Does that include sugar? How many corn flakes? I always have the dilemma of having too many corn flakes, and then not enough milk. However, the next round is the opposite - too much milk, not enough corn flakes. I believe in balance, and try to balance it out bowl after bowl so that eventually I'll get it right and not have extra left over. After all, it has to end equal, right? You can't have milk or cornflakes be lonely!

Thanks for stopping in. I'm sure this will be interesting!